By Ken Woodley
I am too late. My ears will never hear what what Jesus had to say on the mountainside by the Sea of Galilee. My eyes will never see him near me. My heart and soul mourn after traveling so far and overcoming so much to try to see Jesus.
Wandering and feeling lost on this hillside, I find a trail. I follow it first with my eyes and see its winding undulations.
The breeze is strong here. It caresses my cheeks. It’s as if the sky, itself, is comforting me, and I hear a distant but determined voice tell me, “Blessed are the poor in the spirit for theirs is the kingdom of God.”
Suddenly, I feel like a sheep that watches in wonder as a pack of wolves, their ears twitching as they listen, turn and run away, leaving me free to safely journey on.
The shadow of an eagle crosses my steps. I look up and spot it not far above me. I stop to watch its journey, which doesn’t feel so different than my own.
Flying in circles, the eagle rises higher and higher in the sky until it disappears from view, lost in the sun, my eyes almost aching from the brightness.
I reflexively look away and then down and see my own shadow, wingless and lying on the ground, as far away from the sky as it could possibly be.
I spread my arms and so my shadow does, too. My arms look nothing like wings. I move them, mimicking the eagle, but I stay rooted to the ground with my shadow, accepting that no wings of mine will ever touch the sky, embracing my flightless life, flightless in so many ways.
My journey is on the ground where at any moment I may trip on a root or stumble on a rock, but I take the next step anyway, hearing the same voice tell me, “Blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth.”
My footsteps continue on and I see that the trail will wind around a wide hummocky field, dotted with trees and tall grasses.
In the distance, I see a leaf sailing on a soft but steady breeze. I am drawn to that leaf somehow and stand where I am, watching.
The leaf is coming in my direction, far away but getting closer and closer. I have a curious feeling that there is some message in it for me. Nearer and nearer it comes until I reach out and catch it in my hand.
The leaf is painted by the autumn season. Red and yellow and orange, but still traces of green here and there.
As I think of all the seasons that have come and gone and will never come again, I hear the same voice, sounding somehow closer now. “Blessed are those who mourn,” it tells me, “for they will be comforted.”
There is a turning in the trail now, away from the meadow and now down a tree-lined path. Mid-way down it, not far from the woods, I find a Monarch butterfly captured in a spider’s web, caught tight with no hope of escape for this beautiful and endangered species.
There is no movement. I fear that it is dead but I can’t bear the thought of it being eaten by a spider.
Using twigs, I carefully free it from the web but it is still wrapped up in the strands as I place it gently on the ground. With as much delicacy as I can, I pull the strands off, fearful that I will damage its delicate wings.
Miraculously, its wings begin to flutter, awkwardly at first, but soon it takes awkward flight up into the leaves of a small nearby tree. To rest from its ordeal, I suspect, but it is free to continue its journey.
As I look toward the place where I last saw it, I hear the voice as if it’s just beyond the trees. “Blessed are the merciful,” it says, “because they will be shown mercy.”
I find myself wishing I could free every creature, every person caught in whatever web has bound the wings of their hopes and dreams.
Tears run down my cheeks and I hear the voice, almost inside me, say, “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.”
And there, fluttering in front me, is the Monarch butterfly I had just freed. Its wings of stained glass keep it flying close to me, instead of flying off and away.
It circles me and I have the uncanny sensation of it unwrapping what has bound my own wings for so long as it flies around and around me.
The path leads into the edge of a forest and as I journey on the Monarch flies before me, leading me on. The tall ancient trees create a cathedral effect. I look up in wonder as the Monarch flies through a window in the sky.
“Blessed are the pure in heart,” I hear the voice say, sounding right in front of me. Looking away from the trees, I see a man walking toward me. He’s dressed simply, wearing a knee-length tunic covered by a prayer shawl, sandals on his feet.
A gentle love is shining from his eyes as he completes the sentence.
“Because,” he tells me, “they will see God.”
And then Jesus seems to disappear and I am by myself, but never ever alone again as my journey continues.
None of us are ever truly alone, no matter where our paths take us.
The Sermon on the Mount was a long time ago but its words—desperately needed now—are all around us.
Waiting.
As is the one who spoke them.
By Ken Woodley
I am too late. My ears will never hear what what Jesus had to say on the mountainside by the Sea of Galilee. My eyes will never see him near me. My heart and soul mourn after traveling so far and overcoming so much to try to see Jesus.
Wandering and feeling lost on this hillside, I find a trail. I follow it first with my eyes and see its winding undulations.
The breeze is strong here. It caresses my cheeks. It’s as if the sky, itself, is comforting me, and I hear a distant but determined voice tell me, “Blessed are the poor in the spirit for theirs is the kingdom of God.”
Suddenly, I feel like a sheep that watches in wonder as a pack of wolves, their ears twitching as they listen, turn and run away, leaving me free to safely journey on.
The shadow of an eagle crosses my steps. I look up and spot it not far above me. I stop to watch its journey, which doesn’t feel so different than my own.
Flying in circles, the eagle rises higher and higher in the sky until it disappears from view, lost in the sun, my eyes almost aching from the brightness.
I reflexively look away and then down and see my own shadow, wingless and lying on the ground, as far away from the sky as it could possibly be.
I spread my arms and so my shadow does, too. My arms look nothing like wings. I move them, mimicking the eagle, but I stay rooted to the ground with my shadow, accepting that no wings of mine will ever touch the sky, embracing my flightless life, flightless in so many ways.
My journey is on the ground where at any moment I may trip on a root or stumble on a rock, but I take the next step anyway, hearing the same voice tell me, “Blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth.”
My footsteps continue on and I see that the trail will wind around a wide hummocky field, dotted with trees and tall grasses.
In the distance, I see a leaf sailing on a soft but steady breeze. I am drawn to that leaf somehow and stand where I am, watching.
The leaf is coming in my direction, far away but getting closer and closer. I have a curious feeling that there is some message in it for me. Nearer and nearer it comes until I reach out and catch it in my hand.
The leaf is painted by the autumn season. Red and yellow and orange, but still traces of green here and there.
As I think of all the seasons that have come and gone and will never come again, I hear the same voice, sounding somehow closer now. “Blessed are those who mourn,” it tells me, “for they will be comforted.”
There is a turning in the trail now, away from the meadow and now down a tree-lined path. Mid-way down it, not far from the woods, I find a Monarch butterfly captured in a spider’s web, caught tight with no hope of escape for this beautiful and endangered species.
There is no movement. I fear that it is dead but I can’t bear the thought of it being eaten by a spider.
Using twigs, I carefully free it from the web but it is still wrapped up in the strands as I place it gently on the ground. With as much delicacy as I can, I pull the strands off, fearful that I will damage its delicate wings.
Miraculously, its wings begin to flutter, awkwardly at first, but soon it takes awkward flight up into the leaves of a small nearby tree. To rest from its ordeal, I suspect, but it is free to continue its journey.
As I look toward the place where I last saw it, I hear the voice as if it’s just beyond the trees. “Blessed are the merciful,” it says, “because they will be shown mercy.”
I find myself wishing I could free every creature, every person caught in whatever web has bound the wings of their hopes and dreams.
Tears run down my cheeks and I hear the voice, almost inside me, say, “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.”
And there, fluttering in front me, is the Monarch butterfly I had just freed. Its wings of stained glass keep it flying close to me, instead of flying off and away.
It circles me and I have the uncanny sensation of it unwrapping what has bound my own wings for so long as it flies around and around me.
The path leads into the edge of a forest and as I journey on the Monarch flies before me, leading me on. The tall ancient trees create a cathedral effect. I look up in wonder as the Monarch flies through a window in the sky.
“Blessed are the pure in heart,” I hear the voice say, sounding right in front of me. Looking away from the trees, I see a man walking toward me. He’s dressed simply, wearing a knee-length tunic covered by a prayer shawl, sandals on his feet.
A gentle love is shining from his eyes as he completes the sentence.
“Because,” he tells me, “they will see God.”
And then Jesus seems to disappear and I am by myself, but never ever alone again as my journey continues.
None of us are ever truly alone, no matter where our paths take us.
The Sermon on the Mount was a long time ago but its words—desperately needed now—are all around us.
Waiting.
As is the one who spoke them.